Happy and Alone

I fear being alone

But hide in the shadows

The light hurts my eyes

So I shut them tight

Living only in my dreams

Trapped in my bed

I long for love

Yet don’t love myself

So how can anyone see?

See the real me

That I hide away

For fear of rejection

I need to step into the light

Seeing the world outside

Knowing and loving myself

So that alone isn’t lonely

But a new happier life

A joy to discover

I want to feel the sun

Finding the joy within myself

Rather than waiting

For my life to begin

No longer lonely

Just happy and alone

Records

They’re considered quite old-fashioned

Though I love them still

They really are my passion

For always the best pill

Though I have my iPod

It really isn’t the same

Am I just a silly sod?

Maybe it’s really lame

I just love those large covers

Twelve inches in all its glory

With music that one discovers

As it tell its story

Somehow the music seems more real

As I handle with care

Those grooves never losing appeal

As I sit back in my chair

MP3s sound so poor

It really isn’t nice

They make my ears sore

That’s why vinyl is my vice

Oh, how I love that black stuff

Though sometimes it’s white, pink or blue

It’s the sound I love sure enough

It’s beautiful I tell you!!

Midwinter

The summer of my life

Is but a distance memory

As I walk through the rooms of my heart

The icy cold wind

Blowing through these empty rooms

Winter has come to my heart

A winter so bitterly cold

Full of ice and snow

No joy can grow

A life laid so low

The warmth that only love can bring

Is but a whispered memory

Spoken of in hushed tones

By the voices in my head

Oh, the tears I’ve shed

I look upon this scarred landscape

So cold and broken

Lost in this bleak midwinter

Will the light of love shine again?

Or will this winter forever remain?

See Her Smile

When I see her smile

It breaks my heart

Crying tears she’ll never see

For I’ll never say those words

I love you, my dear

As I hold her near

She leaves me longing

For days long gone

Days in that foreign land

Where she stole my heart

An angel in a holy city

Where she looked so pretty

Now I’m just ignored

My texts going unanswered

Though I’ve tried my best

It’s never enough

I’m always alone

In the friend zone

I try to forget

Then I see her smile

And it melts my heart

As she felt so right

In that moment of time

Her beauty so sublime

One Beautiful Hour!

Can one hour change a life?
Forever changing him from within
Once happy to be alone
Accepting his fate
That love was not for him
His outlook always so grim

Then he shares a moment
Where his dreams come true
No longer in his head
This time on the bed
That it feels kind of surreal
His fantasies suddenly so real

The feel of her lips on his
Beyond anything imagined
Opening inside a hunger and desire
As his confidence grows
With each touch and caress
No longer does he repress

The softness of her breasts
Intoxicating as he explores
With hands and tongue
Understanding at last the beauty
Of this intimate hymn
For so long lost to him

When he’s inside her
He finds at last a freedom
In the ecstasy of the moment
A glimpse of happiness
For so long denied
Even though he tried

Once normal life begins
How can he be alone?
Without love or passion
An emptiness burning inside
At all the wasted years
With one beautiful hour
A memory to devour